im am both delighted, and sort-of sad. just in one night.

Delighted:
went to Bukit Panjang Plaza at 7.30 for BCL lessons with jieling!
jointly conducted by Suying.
we had a great time chatting with her, catching up about sch, about trip to ECP etc
she's really not closed after all, just a little shy, maybe.
heh.
then...
went through the 1st 2 lessons again, in detail this time round.
and we found out she wasnt sure of her salvation and all...
so took a longlong time explaining to her...
and in de end prayed with her for assurance of salvation!!!!!
yay!
we were so happy for her la. :]
then... worked thru QT also. hehehe.
(Quiet Time is a time for us to be quiet... -.-")
hahaha.
oh well.
really enjoyed it... and no regrets bout it taking up so much of my time...
came back very very late.

but, after i got home, smthg made me sad.
not the ahhh, this is so tragic kind of sad.
but a half disappointed, wistful, guilty kind of sad.
i told my dad that i failed my econs case study... de one he helped me with.
and he felt really bad he looked through my paper...
then was like, " oh, its very diff leh... has some macro economics stuff inside... not easy leh! i din expect them to want such answers..."
and he was so apologetic...
he gave me 20 bucks and tell me to con't to work hard for it.
i almost wanted to cry la...
in fact, im trying not to cry typing this.
i feel so guilty, that he stayed up till1 am helping me... last night.
and ended up not slpin well.
and yet my teacher graded it stupidly.
and, i just feel like its not a fair return for all his help.
and i felt really bad that its incorrect, more than he does.
and it pains me so that he tries to make up for it
giving me the money but not saying anything.
because he didnt ahve to AT ALL.
not AT ALL, because he's willingness to help is a bonus and im really grateful to begin with and it doesnt really matter that its wrong im glad i have a dad who is willing to help
omgoshmytearsarerollingdownmyfaceohcrap.
and he doesnt have to make up for it at all.
i didnt need it, didnt want it.
and the fact that he tried to made me so sad.
i was a lil sad that he thought money could salvage it, (it won't but thats not the point)
and yea. it just made me so sad im rambling on and on and i cant stop cos i love my daddy
thankew so much dad.
and i returned him the money anyway.
sigh.
i dont know what else to say, to think. but i love my daddy.